my world as of late

my world as of late is getting to be a bit mutch . remember ariana and erich i talked aobut. well their done. she broke up with him. and in my life like me personal life well it has been turned upside down.uno that guy mathew main i've talked about. well i no longer like him ,love him . nothing i feel nothing for him but sadness. but i think my heart is moving on . it's takeing a while and it hurts . cos i've become addicted to the pain of loving something i can't have . i never thought i would miss that feeling of 'i can't have that' and now i have this feeling of 'if i try hard enough i can have that ' but i won't say names cos i'm not sure what i want right now . but i think i know what i want. but it may take a while to figure out. and every one else seems to think that know exactly what i want. but how would they know . they can't read my mind and they don't understand me none of them get my thoughts. well there is a few ppl who get them but very few . anyway. i should go before i write a fricken book about my life. (i would never do that). well maybe u know what i want (or do you). if you know then tell me and i'll tell you how wrong u are. well thats my life as of late. ttyl hugghugg luv all around