not sure what to do

I don't miss him , at lest i'm trying not to so hard .
I don't want to miss him .
but something inside me says that we're suppose to see each other again , that this is just a phase thate we're going thro
but another thing says no its not
your not friends anymore
face it and get over it
but its soo hard

i need to let go of him i need to not think about him again just not again

false friend (ships)

you think you know someone , you trust them .....and then something clicks in you ....you don't realy know them ...you never realy did
their a false friend , it was a false friendship ....so false that now its over and your not even sad .
yes your sad to lose a person but your not loseing a friend ....they never realy were a friend ...they were just some person who you trusted with your life ...just some person who you would have done anything for ....just some person you did 100's of things for .
just some person
just some false friend,

and now you've lost this false friend and you would think that when losing a friend your world would feel as if it was falling down around you . but with this false friend it feels as if your world is becoming better .

people told you that this false friend was never really your friend . and you never believed them .
but now you do . now you see what they were warning you about.
they were warning you that this 'friend' was false and now you know.

now i know.

how could i even think for a moment that you were a true friend .

i'm done

i missed this friend of mine .
but now i've decided that if he doesnt want to talk to me .
then i don't miss him


lyrics to a song.

Am I supposed to put my life on holdBecause you don't know how to actAnd you don't know where your life is going.........
I don't care if I never see you againI'll be alrightTake this final piece of advice and get yourself together .........
I'm so over it, I've been there and back........


that says it all mostly .

but this will work too
You played me for a foolIn your life I was a tool I was always on your sideAlways there when u cried Telling you things so it didn’t seem so badMaking sure u didn’t get to madBelieving ever thing u told me Even if I knew it couldn’t beSmiled at you so u knew ever thing was okI thought in your life I would stayBut I guess feelings change

(feelings change and i don't miss you anymore .....as much )

never regret something that once made you smile .

someone posted that quote on msn , and it got me thinking . i regret things that once made me smile all the time . last night i was laying in bed and i thought of something that my friend did to me at a school retreat and i started to giggle . and he did was come up behind me at supper and squeeze my shoulders . at that moment i laughed and looked up at him . (it was suppose to hurt ....but it didnt ) . and now i've been trying to regret everything that i have ever done with him . and most of the things made me laugh . and made him laugh .

NEVER regret something that once made you smile .

heart

how do you tell your heart not to fall for someone ?
how do you make your heart turn away ?

these r some of the questions i've been asking my self 2day . and i can't answer any of them . i don't want to fall for this person but i fear that i can't stop it .

have you ever felt like something is 'ment to be ' ? but you don't want it to be . i have

but maybe this is just those weird summer feelings that i always seem to get ....
but they've never felt like this before.